A lot of that book is about suicidal ideation. There were only two options: I either learn to grapple with the truth of my life, good and bad, or I end my life. That nobody is too broken, nobody is too much. I wanted to retrieve that idea and deal with it and know that it was a lie. A lot of the final ideation is that people think the world would be better if they were gone. If I was able to reveal the ways in which I’ve failed myself and my children, I think it would help other people forgive themselves too. Part of healing is being accountable for what you have done. But I knew that if I wanted to write a book about my life I couldn’t position myself as a person who had always done the right thing. It was really hurtful to write that I had done those things. But “Heart Berries” includes you giving someone a black eye and a moment when your son is crying in his crib and you put your hand over his mouth. It can be tempting to leave out ugly parts of yourself to seem likable on the page. Writing a memoir gives you control over your own narrative.
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